What it's like to be seen

So this is what it's like when someone See's you. I don't mean physically See you, I know I exist. But this is what it's like when someone See's the you you hide. The you that has been easy to hide so far. I have what is referred to as an invisible...

To feel or not to feel......

So I typically write fairly non-emotional. That's because I am disconnected from my feelings 99% of the time. I have no memories of life before age 14-15 and from what I've read this is a type of disassociation a disconnect between my mind and that...

Life as I knew it....And didn't know it.

Reposting because I originally posted this in the wrong spot. Originally posted on February 17 2017   I started this blog almost 3 years ago but I got busy for a while and then lost my sign in info, but here I am again because now things have...

This is me, just me

Reposting because when I posted I wasn't familiar with the site and posted in the wrong place. Originally posted July 17 2014   I hide myself from the world so for me to write a blog is hard. I am doing it because my sister recently started one...

just an update

So it has been a crazy couple of months since I last posted. A number of things have happened, my oldest started grade 7, my middle daughter started grade 5 and my youngest started preschool. My dad had another health scare, and I found out that my...

little dreams in a big dream world...

we all live in a big dream world. A world of wonders where almost anything is possible or soon will be, a world with quotes like " dream big then work towards that dream". They, of course, are referring to dreams like " I wanna be an astronaut", or "...

2 worlds in one person

I have a unique ability to see things clearly from someone else's Point of view. I can step into their mindset and feel their emotions and therefore understand where they are coming from. I say this is unique because I don't believe that other people...

healthy is all in the head!

So tonight I sit , feeling for once in my life, as if I'm not perfectly healthy. Although I have been plagued throughout  My life with ailments, this is a new sensation for me. I have never felt I'll, unhealthy etc. For my whole life, when doctors ask...

growing up scares me!

So my oldest is turning 13 in a few months and as I am a stickler for rules, I have not yet allowed her to have a Facebook page. She has instagram but only people she has met in person (ie: school friends) or family. I find that these last remaining...

memories, or my life as i know it.

So I have mentioned briefly that I have no memories of my life before age 14. This is a guess, as I have trouble determining how old I am in my memories I do have. I assume 14 because I think that's how old I was in my clearest memory.  My clearest...

details details......

So I have posted twice but I realised I have given only a tiny tidbit of who I am. I figure I should probably amend this. I am a 31 year old female. I have multiple medical issues, I have Ehlors danlows type 3, vestibular migraines, scoliosis, and...

a failure..or..not a failure that is my question

I feel like a failure as a person , as a human and most importantly as a woman. I am supposed to be a pretty ( ok maybe I'm not SUPPOSED to be pretty but I would like to be), able bodied , able minded, wife and mother and homemaker. I am not. I am fat...